I remember thinking at a very young age "I don't like my body. Why am I not like the other girls?"
I remember knowing that I had so much more inside of me that was waiting to shine through, but I was too scared to show it. Why? I thought that it was because I was ashamed of what I looked like. I thought I was fat and ugly and if I am fat and ugly then I can't be anything good.
As I grew older I realized it didn't matter what size I was, how much I weighed, or what I look like. I am who I am because of my heart and my soul. I am who I am because of how strong I am on my weakest days.
I am passionate and emotional AF. But I was so afraid to show that for 20 some years. But when you say "F it" and show who you really are, life happens and it is amazing.
But how did I get to hating my body to realizing I am worth so much more?
Throughout my childhood and teenage years I suppressed those negative emotions about hating my body. I just thought "whatever - this is something I will have to deal with".
But it wasn't getting me anywhere. It was holding me back.
No, my shape and size wasn't the problem. The fact that I THOUGHT I was ugly and worthless was the problem. I was so hard on myself. I thought I would never be "good enough" (whatever that is).
I was holding back because I was scared. I was scared that I would fail. I was scared that I'd be lonely. I was scared that I wouldn't have the perfect life.
Well, welcome to 2017. Life isn't perfect, yet we want everyone to think it is. As long as it looks perfect online, that's all that matters.
I struggle. I have ups and downs just like anyone else, but I don't ever let that hold me back anymore. I don't ever quit. I am strong because on my weakest days, when I want to quit - I KEEP GOING.
Your body is not the problem. Your size is not the problem. Those doubtful thoughts - THOSE are the problem.
You are worth more than you could ever imagine. It might time some work to figure that out, but once you do, your life will seriously change.
If you feel stuck thinking that your body, food, social media, pictures, comparison, etc. is the problem. Then Obsessed to Free is for you. I teach you how I went from obsessed with the scale and being negative with my body, to now loving a cherishing it. You deserve that love and freedom. Learn more below <3