This is a serious question.
How am I supposed to love my body when Instagram is telling me to try out the new weight loss program. And Facebook is full of detox ads. All workout videos are labelled in a way that make you think something is wrong with your thighs or booty or whatever. (Diet Culture YouTube video rant below).
So? How am I supposed to love my body the way it is right now?
I wish I had the magic answer. Sorry, if you came here looking for it, but I don't.
Some days I'm rockin' and love my body - every inch of it.
Some days I want to go back to old habits, starve myself and run on the treadmill all day.
How am I supposed to love a bloated belly?
How am I supposed to love thighs that are growing cause I'm doing that whole squat thing. I thought thinner thighs were better?
How am I supposed to love my oily skin and bushy eyebrows?
It's especially hard when you've been different extremes. "Fat" to extremely skinny to now... just a body.
I don't know what I am. I'm just me. I workout, I eat, I live. But then I look in the mirror and I don't feel good enough. I sit down and I can feel my belly.
In a society that is STILL telling us to change the way we look, it's almost impossible to feel good in your own skin.
I'm so damn over it.
I just want to be me and feel free and COMFORTABLE. That's all I want - comfort.
So here I am. A woman embracing her curves. Embracing every inch of her skin, even the ones I have trouble loving. I will not stop fighting for peace and you shouldn't either.
I love you,